Le cart, this week.

People often ask for book suggestions. I find this intriguing though. For I believe, it is never a 'natural reader' who asks for recommendations. Such people, I am sure have a perennially long list of books that they desperately wish to get to. The list never ends and therefore they voluntarily never really ask someone...

How worthy are you?

“No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.” Eleanor Roosevelt How does one not feel inferior? How is self- worth determined? And what is the consequence of being worthy? Most struggles in life revolve around the balance between desires and assets. How much we want versus how much we have. What we wish for...

Deep work, excuses and a disordered- mind.

I have already broken my streak. I had promised myself I will get back to it. At least for the few days that the working- world doesn't dictate my time. But our time isn't ever really our time, is it? I am talking about my 30- day- squat challenge that I voiced on here, and...

Antilibrary

“It is our knowledge — the things we are sure of — that makes the world go wrong and keeps us from seeing and learning.” -Lincoln Steffens in his 1925 essay. Tsundoku is acquiring reading material and letting them pile up, without actually reading them. Apparently there is actually a dedicated term for my affliction....

The Matrix and I

I recently re- watched the The Matrix series, probably for the 21st time. I was in in standard eight (eighth grade) when the first movie came out. Apart from being an instant cult- classic, I personally believe it is also one of the best sci- fi movies ever made- in many ways. It remember exactly...

The desk on a non- manic day

The manic surgeon-mum desk I know nobody cares, but I'm still going to put it out there. It will someday serve as a reference to myself- I can come back to the post if I need to look up something 😉 After we moved to Trivandrum, we spent a few months in complete chaos. My...

Squat Everyday- Day 5

We are officially in 'triple lockdown'. Since cleft surgeries are considered elective and because I have taken the call to also shut my private practice for the duration of the restrictions (assuming no one is going to brave a cyclone, a pandemic AND the Kerala Police to come in for a Botox session), I am...

On the carousel this week

It's all dark clouds and dark moods here. A pandemic, some torrential rain and a dash of cyclone in the mix. Happy weekend y'all. Ha. As if there is any difference. Hours merge into days and days into nights. The weeks seamlessly coalesce. There are no work days and weekends. No school runs and morning...

What will become of us?

As Lil' Z wakes up more morose than usual (it is mostly not her fault to be honest https://manicmumlife.wordpress.com/2017/07/05/broody-mornings/) and even my generally sunnily disposed male progeny seems a bit off- kilter, I wonder- we are all going a bit stir- crazy, absolutely. These are unprecedented days, weeks and months. Only in the distant future...

An imposter

The vicissitudes of my mien have long confounded me. Dissecting my moods is never easy. As the layers peel away, I understand less rather than more. And among the most confusing of feelings is the feeling of being an imposter. A fraud. Masquerader. This feeling can occur along a wide spectrum. From a cheap phony...